Sunday, February 13, 2011

Intro - My Blog & My Fight With Cancer

Hello There,
I'm Nick fr KL, Malaysia. 
First time blogging & my aim is to share info as much as possible pertaining to my experience on cancer.
While I'm writing this, I've finished my last chemotherapy closed to a week ago & recovering from it. 
Just a couple of weeks more before I go for my ops in Singapore. 
Diagnosed on 18 Dec 2010 with trachea (windpipe) cancer .

I know how devastating it is when you hear these words splat onto your face...
' I'm so sorry to tell you that its cancer.'
' Huh?? Am I dreaming or what? Cancer? Huh????'
Everyone seems to be in shock to hear it & some couldn't stop the tears from flowing.
You will feel lost & probably think of the below.
' Will I die from this? Do I have to leave my wife, my son, my family, my friends... everything?.'

Death never did cross my mind until then.
At that moment, the brain painstakingly works on the maths, what I have & what I need to do to move on.
Our dream seems distant & the mind just wouldn't come drift off to rest.
Dreaded, tired, sad , dissapointed, scared & negative.
But I told myself this,
'Life moves on & I am definately facing this for a reason.'


' Nick, gear yourself up with objectives, polish those sweet thoughts in your mind, put your brain to work those financial maths which seems to follow you like your shadow...........FACE the fact & COPE with it.'

When I got to know what I'd got,  I was searching the web for anything pertaining it. My wife was also desperately digging the vast web with me. 
Conclusion, not many people would like to share their cancer experiences over the web in Malaysia, or rather they are too tired to do it.
Only found Äida, whom had gone through it & shared her therapy experiences in detail. 
You can click the below to view.
http://munirah18.blogspot.com/2010/11/radiotherapy-week-1-and-chemotherapy.html

Below are the events & thoughts which had run within my thoughts.
If you have any suggestions, do drop me a message.
I might change the titles as I move on. 

Events
1. What is cancer? My initial impression was that it kills.
2. So? What now ? Whats next?
2a. Medical Vacation At Singapore (Added in on 11 Mar'11)
2b. The Side Effects during Chemotherapy (Added in on 11 Mar'11)
2c. The Pain during the Operation (Added in on 11 Mar'11)
2d. Your Optimism Gets Twisted Once In A While (Added in on 11 Mar'11)
2e. Substance X (Added in on 11 Mar'11)

3. Family & friends, where am I without them?
4. A Mix of Eastern with Acupuncture & Herbs
5. My source of motivation, comfort & support.
6. So frustrating... choices are limited.
7. Lucky I have I have insurance to help.
8. Options for operations?
9. Like it or not, you need to work your body out.
10. Being bald is not bad , not too bad at all.


I need a nap now. Feels very tired easily & just vomited a while ago. 
Continue as soon as I can.

6 comments:

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  2. Hi Nick...It's Linda here. Finally got the chance to read your blog. You have somehow inspired me to always stay positive.. You stay strong as always..I pray for your speedy recovery.

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  3. Hello Linda,
    Wow, you are fast. Thanx so much for the much needed prayers. I will continue to win & inspire all the cancer patients to keep their heads up.

    Its never a bad ending unless a person wanted to pen it that way.

    Cheers : )

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  4. Hi Nick.. this is Novia, I went through all your stories, such an unbelievable spirit from you. How your families and friend stay with you, be strong team and give support to you...
    Your writing teach me to appreciate life more and more. As we talked last night, family come first..and i have to keep remaining myself before I regret it someday... Keep in touch ok...

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  5. Hi Nick, I am NKH from Sri Petaling. You are right as not many write about their experience with cancer. Maybe not many like to write but would like to share. I was diagnosed with nasal cancer in 2006. After 6 years, I am still suffering from the radiation therapy side effects. I decided to write my difficult times dealing with the side effect at http://catfishstory.wordpress.com/

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